Soo.. It's been a long time since I've blogged. I haven't really had much to write about. Now I do.

I've always been interested in style and beauty and things, but I've never really had the money or body to wear whatever I want. When I see something on Pinterest it always makes me wonder what it would look like on my body.

I see people wearing scarves. I absolutely love wearing scarves. I'm actually wearing one right now. I would wear a scarf every day if I could, but sadly, I only have about three. I have a larger chest, so when I wear a scarf I feel like people don't notice it as much. I can wear a low-cut top and a scarf so I'm not constantly worrying about what people are looking at.

I also love skinny jeans, though I can't always wear them. I have one pair that are kind of big at the bottom, and that bugs me. I want skinny jeans that will fit around my waist, hide my love-handles, but still be tight at the bottom. I have also been obsessed with colored pants, but my school is small enough that everyone would think I was weird.. Sure there are some people around school who wear red skinny jeans. I absolutely love them, but people who wear them are either rebelious and are expected to wear something bright and stand-out-ish or they are popular and anything they wear will be cute and everyone will love them. I just feel like if I were to wear something different, people would think I was just looking for attention.

I really like to do different things to my hair. I love curling my hair, but when I do it never stays throughout the day. I straighten my hair almost every day, and I feel like that gets monotonous. I would curl my hair more often, but then I have to wake up an hour earlier just so I can get it done. And when I have to wake up at 5:30, my mom gets mad when I "intrude" on her bathroom space. She always says she wants me to curl my hair more often and look nice, but when I do she doesn't like me in her area. She confuses me.

I do my nails two or three times a week. I can't stand seeing my nails completely bare for more than a day. When I get on Pinterest, there are always so many things I could do to my nails to jazz them up, but when I try it, they don't turn out right. I just wish there was an easy way I could do my nails and make them different. And, when I do my nails they always chip the day after I do them. I've tried finding tricks online that could help prevent that, but nothing seems to work. My friend told me about a different way, though. She told me to soak my nails in vinegar once I get my old nail polish off, use Nail Envy by OPI as a base coat, use whatever color, use a top coat, and then once they are completely dry soak them in ice water. I don't know how this will work, but I hope it does. I want long, perfectly square nails. That is my dream.

Sometimes I just feel like coming to school in an extreme outfit, just to see what people say. I want to wear yellow skinny jeans with a grey long-sleeve and a black scarf and black high heels. I know that wouldn't be the ideal outfit for school, but I feel like it would get me noticed. One of my biggest fears is not being remembered from high school. I just hope that doesn't happen.

I am loved..

I don't have a boy to talk to anymore. But it's okay. I've realized I don't need a boy in my life to make me happy. I have family and friends who love me.

My friends are always there for me and would do anything for me. I recently figured out who my true friends are and truth is, I'd been pushing one away for absolutely no reason. But I love her enough to not want to let her go, so I apologized and now my day can be right again. My friends are always the ones who brighten my life. They know how to turn my day from crappy to happy the moment I talk to them. It just makes me feel so much better knowing that they are the ones waiting with their arms open as I cry. I trust every one of them enough to tell them everything. I couldn't imagine my life without them in it every single day.

I don't know what I'd do without my family. As I sit here typing, I realize how much my mother has influenced my life. She is the one person who knows all of my secrets. When something happens, she is the one I go to, good or bad. We can talk for hours about anything in the world. She makes me laugh, she makes me cry, she makes me mad, she makes me smile. She is the most amazing mother a person could ask for. I can only wish that when I'm old enough to have children, I can be half the perfect mother she has taught me to be. She is the only person I would ever want helping me in the rest my life's problems. I know I could never surpass her greatness, but she will teach me well, I know she will.

The rest of my family is important, too. Some of my family overlaps into my friends. There are a few of my cousins that I tell everything to just because I know they wouldn't tell anyone, or anyone who cares. There are times when I miss them, but that is why I'm thankful for the holiday season. I have cousins that live in St. Louis and cousins that live in Las Vegas, so Christmas and summer break is about the only time I get to see them. My aunt and uncle that live in St. Louis are just like a second - or third - set of parents to me. I know they would do anything for me, no matter the situation. They treat me like I'm the same little girl they've always known. They know the innocence that is deep within me, no matter what I look like on the outside. I never want them to leave my life. I just don't know what I'd do with myself.

I'm sitting here crying because I finally realize how much I am loved, by family and friends. I will never be alone no matter where I go. I love my life, and there is nothing that could take that away from me.

Update!!

As I sit here bored, I realize it's been a while since I've posted. Not too much has happened.. Well mostly just one thing actually....

I think I like someone.. Emphasis on the think.... He's a really nice guy, but he used to be kind of creepy... He would text me sometimes and try to get me to hang out with him when we've never talked before.. A few months ago, I just realized that I liked a different guy, but as always, he likes my friend.. Every single guy I have liked, she has taken away because she is such a flirt. Don't get me wrong, I love her to death, but she has a boyfriend and she flirts with all these people and she "doesn't even know it." I don't understand how she doesn't know, but that's what she claims. Whatever.
Back to this guy. He used to be a creep and weird and all, but I've talked to him for about a week now and he seems nice.. I'm just afraid, though, because he acts just like my ex. My friends didn't like my ex at all and they've heard me talk about this guy before and they think he's weird... So I'm kind of keeping this to myself and a few others.. I know it makes me sound superficial, but yes, it's embarrassing because he's known around the school as a creepy weirdo.. But he is really nice.. And I like having someone to talk to... We're trying to find a time to hang out, but I don't know when. Fridays there's usually a basketball game and Saturdays I like to be with my friends.. Oh well.. We'll see where it goes..

I'm not one of them..

So as you may have noticed, my blog's name is I'm not one of them. Well today I have decided to tell you why I named it this.

"I'm not one of them"is a song by Lauren Alaina and as soon as I heard this song, I knew I wanted this as the name. It talks about how she is different from every other girl that will just give a guy everything. I am just like this. "There's a lot of girls who might just fall for what you've got, but I'm not one of them." As I have been growing up, I figured out my morals and I need to stick to them. I won't be pushed around by some guy just so they can "get some." That's not me.

I also chose this because I like to be different. I don't care what people say, I love to be me. I can be country one moment and pop the next. I can be loving at times and bitchy the next. That's just me. I like to have my own style and do my own thing, no matter who says it's wrong. My style is different, but it's also just like everyone else, if that makes any sense... I like to be in with the newest trends, but I also love vintage things, too bad I don't have anything.. I love owls. My friends say they freak them out, but I love them. I also like to be in with the latest music, doesn't matter what kind it is. I'll listen to rap, (thanks to Lizzy and Nick) country, (thanks to Kate and Taylor) and pop (thanks to Lizzy again). I just like things I can sing and dance to, even though I can't dance. I also love being out late. I love being around people and parties. I sometimes feel like my friends can't keep up with me because I like to be everywhere at once. I love having something to do every weekend. I hate being cooped up in my house for days. I hate it, it makes me feel lazy, even though I could be doing the same exact thing at James's house or Lizzy's house or Kate's house. It just makes me feel like I'm doing something when I'm at someone else's house. I also love the atmosphere when I'm at someone else's house. At Kate's I just feel like I'm at home. At Lizzy's I feel like I'm at home, especially with her sisters always doing my hair and talking to me like I'm just another sister. I think I like James's parents the most, though. His mom is so nice and she always makes me feel like I'm a part of their family, especially because she raised a house full of boys. I like going there and just talking to her about everything, just like she's another one of us. His dad and older brother are so much fun to talk to. They can talk for hours and hours and just crack me up. I love my friends, and especially their families.

You can't tell me one person who is exactly like that. That's why I'm not one of them..

It's The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year.. (:

I love snow! Today was the first snow fall of winter 2011-2012! I don't think you understand how excited I am about it. I absolutely love winter! I love the pretty snow! I love putting up the tree! I love making 50-75 (literally) cookies with my mom! I love getting all warm and cosy with a book and coffee beside the fireplace. As you can imagine, this is exactly the way I spend my snow days. 

I love waking up in the morning to get a text from the school saying school is cancelled. I love sleeping till noon all warm in my bed. I also love baking things, no matter what season, and in the winter I can bake things with all the extra time I have during snow days.

I love being able to go to school every day with a sweater and scarf on. Those are my two favorite things to wear. I love being warm and cozy and I think scarves are the cutest things ever. I also have a new obsession with pea-coats. I just think they are adorable with a scarf and boots. My mom always tells me she won't get me a new coat because I got a varsity jacket my freshman year of high school thinking I would play sports the rest of high school, well I quit basketball and got cut from volleyball, so I have those two sports on the back and I look stupid because I don't have a letter, either. Oh well. Back to clothes. I love Christmas. Every year I either get clothes or money and that means I basically get a whole new wardrobe. These are basically the three things I absolutely need.

       

I also love the music! That might be my favorite part. They have been playing Christmas music in Wal-Mart for a week or so and it makes me so happy. It's just what makes every kid in the world feel excited and happy. I have been listening to it for over a month now and I just can't seem to stop. It just fills my heart. I also love the movies! They're either about Christmas miracles, which make me cry, Christmas love, which make me cry, or it's a sad Christmas movie, which also makes me cry. 25 Days Till Christmas on ABC Family is quite possibly the best thing that has happened to this earth. I watch all the classics and sing along to all the songs and get to watch them over and over because I usually record them. (:

Oooopss... New post!

So everyone that just saw that last post.. That was my friend Katie. Different person from the previous post about Kate. (:
She kind of just attacked my blog as I was thinking of things to write about.. Oh well..
She is psycho.. But it's okay cus I love her.. (:

So anyway, I don't really know what to talk about, so I will just have to tell you 5 ways how to turn summer into fall and winter.
1. Say you have your favorite summer shirt, but it's only a tank top. Well, all you need to do is add some skinny jeans, flats, and a cardigan and you're set for fall.
2. Your hair was oh so blonde and beautiful in the summer. (Like mine) Don't go crazy and get your hair colored dark like I did. Big mistake. It will turn out green or gray and nobody wants that. All you need is a few low lights and you're good to go.
3. Your nails. Forget the pastel colors and go for the brown or red nails. It will definitely match the feel outside and it will get you in the mood for warm clothes.
4. Food! Everyone loves burgers and smoothies outside on the picnic table. Instead of burgers, make a pizza or some soup. Everyone loves pizza and soup. And forget the smoothies, well actually you can still have those every so often, but start up the coffee maker. And for those who don't like coffee, have a nice cup of tea and curl up with a good book. It's the best way to get through those lazy Sundays.
5. "Put on some pants." says Kate. She says people need to stop wearing shorts when it's only 40 degrees outside. It annoys me too, but oh well.

hola

hi my name is katie. :)