I am loved..

I don't have a boy to talk to anymore. But it's okay. I've realized I don't need a boy in my life to make me happy. I have family and friends who love me.

My friends are always there for me and would do anything for me. I recently figured out who my true friends are and truth is, I'd been pushing one away for absolutely no reason. But I love her enough to not want to let her go, so I apologized and now my day can be right again. My friends are always the ones who brighten my life. They know how to turn my day from crappy to happy the moment I talk to them. It just makes me feel so much better knowing that they are the ones waiting with their arms open as I cry. I trust every one of them enough to tell them everything. I couldn't imagine my life without them in it every single day.

I don't know what I'd do without my family. As I sit here typing, I realize how much my mother has influenced my life. She is the one person who knows all of my secrets. When something happens, she is the one I go to, good or bad. We can talk for hours about anything in the world. She makes me laugh, she makes me cry, she makes me mad, she makes me smile. She is the most amazing mother a person could ask for. I can only wish that when I'm old enough to have children, I can be half the perfect mother she has taught me to be. She is the only person I would ever want helping me in the rest my life's problems. I know I could never surpass her greatness, but she will teach me well, I know she will.

The rest of my family is important, too. Some of my family overlaps into my friends. There are a few of my cousins that I tell everything to just because I know they wouldn't tell anyone, or anyone who cares. There are times when I miss them, but that is why I'm thankful for the holiday season. I have cousins that live in St. Louis and cousins that live in Las Vegas, so Christmas and summer break is about the only time I get to see them. My aunt and uncle that live in St. Louis are just like a second - or third - set of parents to me. I know they would do anything for me, no matter the situation. They treat me like I'm the same little girl they've always known. They know the innocence that is deep within me, no matter what I look like on the outside. I never want them to leave my life. I just don't know what I'd do with myself.

I'm sitting here crying because I finally realize how much I am loved, by family and friends. I will never be alone no matter where I go. I love my life, and there is nothing that could take that away from me.

Update!!

As I sit here bored, I realize it's been a while since I've posted. Not too much has happened.. Well mostly just one thing actually....

I think I like someone.. Emphasis on the think.... He's a really nice guy, but he used to be kind of creepy... He would text me sometimes and try to get me to hang out with him when we've never talked before.. A few months ago, I just realized that I liked a different guy, but as always, he likes my friend.. Every single guy I have liked, she has taken away because she is such a flirt. Don't get me wrong, I love her to death, but she has a boyfriend and she flirts with all these people and she "doesn't even know it." I don't understand how she doesn't know, but that's what she claims. Whatever.
Back to this guy. He used to be a creep and weird and all, but I've talked to him for about a week now and he seems nice.. I'm just afraid, though, because he acts just like my ex. My friends didn't like my ex at all and they've heard me talk about this guy before and they think he's weird... So I'm kind of keeping this to myself and a few others.. I know it makes me sound superficial, but yes, it's embarrassing because he's known around the school as a creepy weirdo.. But he is really nice.. And I like having someone to talk to... We're trying to find a time to hang out, but I don't know when. Fridays there's usually a basketball game and Saturdays I like to be with my friends.. Oh well.. We'll see where it goes..